Ah, December. That time of the year when everyone is revising the whole syllabus for 5th or 6th times, and casually not panicking about their futures (JEE!). Meanwhile, here I am—a proud dropper, gearing up to retake the JEE, and revisiting the 12th board exams because, apparently, 75% is the magic number to prove I’m “educated enough.”
Fear of syllabus? Nope, never met her. My syllabus stares at me with the intensity of a tiger eyeing a very slow-moving deer, and what do I do? I shrug, grab my phone, and somehow end up watching a Max Fosh's YouTube video titled, “I Paid Two Private Investigators To Follow Each Other” and usually watch evergreen, Legendary....The "CID". Priorities, right?
The Daily Routine of Chaos
Here’s how my average day looks:
Morning Optimism
Wake up. Look at the neatly stacked books on my desk. Feel a sudden surge of motivation. Think, Today is the day I conquer Electrostatics!
Spoiler: It’s not.The Study Session That Wasn’t
I sit down with full intent to study. One page in, my brain whispers, “Let’s take a short break.” This short break involves Insta reels, YouTube rabbit holes, and Googling “Can you pass JEE with 0 prep but pure vibes?”The Guilt Trip
By evening, guilt hits harder than a Physics problem I can’t solve. I resolve to focus. I study for 20 whole minutes before getting distracted again. Progress!Nighttime Epiphanies
Every night, I have the same realization: I could’ve been an astronaut by now if I just studied when I said I would. Cue overthinking, setting unrealistic alarms, and falling asleep in denial.
Social Media: The Ultimate Frenemy
Let’s talk about Insta. I’m trying to stay off it because scrolling through perfect lives while mine feels like a compilation of bloopers is not ideal. But the temptation is real. I mean, what’s more exciting—solving integrals or watching a cat “help” its owner with homework? Exactly.
The (Sort-Of) Bright Side
Okay, jokes aside, I know I need to get serious. I’m not completely hopeless—just slightly delayed. I’ve been reducing my Insta time and focusing (kind of) more on studies. Small wins, people. Small wins.
So, if you’re in the same boat, let me know—how do you tackle this endless cycle of procrastination and guilt? Asking for a friend. 😊
